It's been a while!

...since I last posted! I am now in the full swing of summer adventures! First I went to Yellowstone, then I went to the Oregon Coast, then I went to California, then I went to Yellowstone, and next week I'm going to Yellowstone again. WAHOO! I'm trying to ignore my near-brokeness... Ooh and I have a blind date tomorrow! I hope it's either really good or really bad. If it's really good, awesome! If it's really bad, then I have yet another bad date story to add to my bursting collection of them. I'll have to blog about all of my bad dates. They're actually quite hilarious. The best bad date (worst?) I ever had was actually with my ex-boyfriend/the guy I thought I was going to marry but am eternally grateful now that he broke it off and still wonder exactly how I could've been so idiotic... and now that we're not speaking to each other, I can tell it!

I'm ornary and emotional. And not enjoying it.

Every once in a while it's nice to have a grumpy day where nothing makes you happy. I'm generally a very happy person, so having these bad days reminds me that I'm human rather than a robot. Sometimes though, I almost wish that I didn't have the capacity for emotions. Almost. This is one of those days, where I just want to turn off and not care any more. What brought on this very un-Aly-like mood? Last night I found out that my ex- boyfriend/fiancee/whatever apparently did care about me, or at least that's what he said. That he joined this frat because he was 'heartbroken' and so he could 'get over (me)' etc. etc. You would think this would make me happy to know that oh, he CAN feel and maybe I WASN'T just a 'CONVIENCE' like he told me. But no, it really upset me. I thought with a good night's sleep I'd be fine. I slept. And I'm not fine. I'm also thoroughly frustrated with myself because I'm over this and have been for a couple months, so to have this pain sneak up again and stab me in the back is just... excruciating, and I don't know how to deal with it. But I know I'll be fine and that eventually I'll snap out of it, hopefully sooner rather than later. It's just hard while I'm in the middle.